~I AM THANKFUL. This has not always been an easy walk for me.
~I am disappointed. We have missed family gatherings, weddings, birthday parties, church activities and holidays because of shift schedules and overtime.
~I am patient. There have been dinners spent at the firehouse waiting for daddy to return from a call while the kids get cranky and the food gets cold.
~I am nervous. I awake at 3 am hearing creaks in the house and don't have the comfort of my husband beside me.
~I am tired. The house is full of sick kids and there is no relief in sight because daddy is on a seventy-two hour shift.
~I am jealous. Jealous of all the women whose husbands came home at 5 pm to have dinner and hold them at the end of their day.
~I am worried. I worry that he may not come home one day. This I try to tuck away.
~I am content. We have decided to give up my career so I can stay home and raise the children. We don't have an abundance of things or money, but this is the greatest freedom I have ever known.
~I am incompetent. There was a time when I considered myself moderately intelligent. I now struggle to remember where I left my car keys, diaper bag, and, occasionally, the baby.
~I am waiting. Knowing the phone may one day ring for me.
~I am doubting. Doubting that God hears all my prayers. Doubting I am the kind of wife and mother He needs me to be.
~I am trusting. Trusting that my husband will come home again.
~I am confident, I am embarrassed, I am lonely, I am surprised, I am grateful, I am proud, I am honored, I am overworked, I am underpaid.
~I am......a fireman's wife.~
wonderful words from Susan Farren's book 'The Fireman's wife' with a little of me added in there.
